Do you ever have one of those days that you just don't want to get out of bed? Today was one of those days. I just did not want to get up and face the world today. It's not been a pretty world for me for the most part for the last week or so. It's been one of the craziest weeks with ridiculous things happening. If I stay in bed all day, nothing bad can happen, right?
It all started with a bad weekend. I spent it frustrated about a situation that's been brewing for weeks. Every day of the past week has increased my frustration more and more. I just want it to go away. I just want to try and figure out the best way to handle this situation so that I do not continue to freak out about this. But I don't know how to do it....So, I just try and make it through the day.
Wednesday, someone stole my purse. Yup. My purse was stolen. Why me? Really? Eventually, I did get it back, however, it was missing some stuff I would much rather still have. Such as my cash, my debit card, my medications. How does this happen? I don't know, so I just try and make it through the day.
The last couple of days, I've had several people make me feel quite crappy about myself. Made me feel like I wasn't a good enough friend, like I was lying to them, like I wasn't adequate. I don't know how to deal with this. I don't even know how to write a good blog about this stuff. It's just really bothering me.
Solution...
I've decided that I am going to deal with these situations. I cannot wake up every morning feeling like I don't want to get out of bed. Worrying about what might be said to upset me today. The first situation will probably be the toughest, but it's been long-standing, and it needs to be handled. I'm going to tell someone about the frustration and anxiety they've been causing me for years. I also decided that I am going to talk to above mentioned people about how their words have affected me. There may even be a few that I may not talk to anymore. Who really knows.
The biggest thing that I have decided is to do my best to get up each morning and find something to look forward to, instead of dreading getting up and dreading the day. I want to live each day to the fullest instead of just trying to get through the day.
Sorry for the unorganized, rambling blog. I couldn't find the right words to articulate this issue...I couldn't figure out what exactly I needed to say. But, having said that, I feel better after rambling for a few minutes in this blog.
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